OMG MARRY MEEEE! O.o

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Memories…

SO TODAY I WENT INTO MY PARENTS BEDROOM TO FIND A PEN, AND AS IM LOOKING AROUND ON THE DRESSER, I SAW A LETTER SIGNED TO ME FROM, BILL CLINTON. I THOUGHT IT WAS RECENT SO I GRABBED IT, AND REALIZED THAT IT WAS ACUALLY A LETTER FROM 2008, AND FROM A GUY THAT I USED TO KNOW AND LOVE.

 I RAN INTO THE FAMILY ROOM, AND ASKED MY MOM WHY IM JUST NOW SEEING THIS, AND SHE JUST GAVE ME, “THE FACE” LOL! SO I WENT UP TO MY ROOM, AND BEGAN TO READ THE LETTER. IT STARTED OFF WITH, “I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND IM PISSED!” I IMMEDIATELY LAUGHED, AND THEN GOT A LITTLE SAD, BECAUSE THOSE DAYS WERE SO LONG AGO. WE WERE YOUNG, AND I WAS IN LOVE. ITS FUNNY HOW LITTLE THINGS LIKE THAT POP UP, AND REMIND YOU OF WHAT USED TO BE, AND MAKE YOU THINK ABOUT WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN.

IM NOT GOING TO BE CLICHE’, AND SAY THAT I DON’T HAVE ANY REGRETS, BECAUSE I DEFINITELY DO! I REGRET PUTTING MY HEART INTO SOMEONE THAT DIDNT WANT TO GROW UP, AND DO THE SAME FOR ME. I REGRET NOT LISTENING TO MY INTUITION, WHEN IT TOLD ME THAT HE MAY NOT BE PLAYING FOR, “MY TEAM”. I REGRET NOT LISTENING TO MY FAMILY, AND FRIENDS WHO GENUINELY WANTED THE BEST FOR ME WHEN THEY TOLD ME TO STAY AWAY FROM HIM. AND I’M MAD AT MYSELF FOR STILL CARING FOR THIS PERSON WHO BLANTANTLY BETRAYED ME!

I GUESS THATS JUST MY NATURE. TO TRUST, AND LOVE WITH EVERYTHING IN ME. BUT, HEY! WE LIVE AND WE LEARN. I HAVEN’T LIVED YET, BUT I HAVE DEFINITELY LEARNED MY LESSON.

IM A DIFFERENT GIRL FROM THE ONE THAT HE WROTE IN 2008. IM A WOMAN WITH GOALS, AND AMBITIONS. A WOMAN THAT WANTS MORE THAN A NICE SMILE, AND SOMEONE TO TALK TO. IM A WOMAN THAT WANTS A MAN, NOT A BOY. IM HAPPY I FOUND THAT LETTER, BECAUSE IT REALLY BROUGHT ME CLOSURE, AND I KNOW NOW THAT I’LL BE OKAY.

AHHHHHHH…

JUST A COUPLE MORE WEEKS ‘TILL IM ON A FLIGHT TO JOISEYYYYYY!

FIRST FLIGHT, AND I’LL BE MYSELF! NERVOUS/EXCITED!